This series of paintings were made in late 2018 and early 2019. Like everyone else, I go through cycles or stages where I am either feeling
very confident about my life and my work and practically all my life choices and then there are phases when I question each and every decisions that I have ever made and the decisions that I am about to make and am in constant dilemma. I am sure that most of us are like that. We all have what some call the Impostor Syndrome.
I have had days when I wake up feeling really good and thinking that today is the day I will conquer the world and just within a span of small period I feel like I am the biggest loser and feel so lost. But at the same time there are days when I wake up fearing and dreading facing life and then something happens and all of a sudden I gain back my confidence. This uneven path is what life is all about. If life was just a smooth path, we wouldn't have appreciated it at all.
These paintings represents that uneven path of life and the kind of dilemma that one faces. We are after all just humans and emotions are what makes us just who we are. Our lives are not a perfect smooth road but an uneven path where we traverse through. We find beauty, happiness, contentment in unusual situation, unusual places and unusual circumstances. We know how to move on despite the problems.
P.S. I do not think of a philosophy and start painting , nor do I think of an explanation after I finish a work. These things just happens on its own. The paintings and the philosophy behind the work just juxtapose on its own sometimes during the work, sometimes before the work and sometimes after a long time after the work has been finished. Often times the game of chess, the patterns and the rules of the game inspires me, just like in this series but that does not happens in all my works.
